Ugh

Well, we did accomplish our furniture shopping yesterday, but boy did I feel awful the entire time we were out!  Geesh.  I finally managed to down some saltines and a bit of tomato soup last night.  No thanks to Target, where they had a display of super smelly dryer sheets stacked right next the checkout line that we chose.  I almost tossed cookies right there in the store.  I'm very confused about why smells are bothering me right now.  I suppose the blessing is the fact that this is happening after my period, rather than before my period when I would have interpreted this as a possible pregnancy sign.

This morning I woke up with a sore throat and pounding head.  I just hope I don't have the flu.

Anyway, I am hoping to hear something about my CD3 blood results this week.  It would be nice to have some answers and some sort of course of action.  I know P won't be overly thrilled about submitting a sample if my results come back normal, but he's the other half to this equation and I know he'll do it promptly so we can get this show on the road.  If it even comes to that, of course.  I'm expecting some abnormalities in my results anyway, considering the inconsistencies that were found about 15 months ago.  All we can do is wait and see for now.

Right now I am taking it one day at a time, and I am really concentrating on feeling joy for women who are pregnant right now.  I so do not want to become bitter.  It's a constant internal struggle, believe me.  However, bitterness will not produce anything besides unhappiness, so I know it's something that must be controlled.  All I can do is look forward to the unbelievable happiness that awaits me, too.  One day.

WTF??

This a test of the Biological Clock rant system.  This is only a test.

I just can't figure out my body, and it's seriously pissing me off.  First of all, I stopped bleeding yesterday.  Great, right?  I thought so.  Until I started bleeding again all of a sudden this afternoon.  WTF?

And as if that isn't enough...  We were having a great Sunday morning.  I made a great start on my 101 Things in 1001 Days list.  We walked the dogs in the beautiful Florida sunshine, I drank my morning coffee, surfed the 'Net and watched HGTV to my little heart's desire.  And then, out of nowhere, I became extremely nauseated.  I had to lie down until my tummy couldn't take it anymore, and at that point I ran to the bathroom and vomited.

Went to lie down again, hoping to drift to sleep and awaken feeling much better.  However, the acidic feeling in my throat now required Tums.  Thought I felt better, so I jumped in the shower.  Went through my usual lotion and deodorant routine post-shower, and now I am extremely disturbed by the scent of my lotion (an organic and natural lotion, by the way) and my everyday deodorant.  Feel as though I am going to vomit again.

WTF?

First of all, I have a stomach of steel and I never vomit.  I get nauseated before my period every cycle, but I rarely vomit.  Second of all, why the hell are my everyday smells bothering me?  Third of all, this is so effed up because I just had my period (well, am having it again today, apparently).  And finally, I am ticked because we are supposed to be furniture shopping right now.  I do not have time for this ridiculous business.

Dear body, you suck.  Now get over this drama and start feeling normal again, dammit!

Rant over.